The next six months are going to be a journey. The next six months are going to be full of highs and lows, good days and bad, feeling full of energy and forcing myself out of bed. The next six months are going to give me my life back. And I'm here for it...and I hope you are too, because I plan to share the entire journey along the way.
I have spent the last 3 years progressively fighting debilitating illness. This has taken a woman that has always been a hard worker, a doer, a never stopper and shut me down. It has caused not only physical limitations and battles, but the mental and emotional has been just as devastating. It has cost me in every area you can imagine, relationships, financially, bodily and productively just to name a few.
I recently sat down with a CNHP and went over every symptom, every struggle, every battle. She took in all the information, she ran her tests and her body scans and she pieced it all together. We spent over an hour digging in and with her previous research from what she already knew about my health history and what was confirmed that day I now know that I am battling Lyme disease. I will be going through a very structured six months of treatments, strict diet changes and a lot of internal body healing through prayer and meditation and counseling.
So the next six months is going to look a lot different than what I thought it was going to. I have been planning for the re-opening of the farm in 2025, and now that is off the table. With these treatments my days will be unpredictable depending on the dosages I will be taking for that week, so that eliminates any outside commitments. Stress is a huge contributing factor to how intensely this disease has affected my body; internally, externally and psychologically; so that has to be controlled as much as possible.
What does this mean for the farm? For the dream? Well, for now we have shut down gardens, we are dwindling down our pig operation, and we won't be producing for the public at all. Things are cut down to a one man simple operation and will remain so until we are on the other side of these treatments. Tyler and Colt will be finishing up projects, like all of our fencing, the window greenhouse, the pig barn, chicken tractors, our outdoor kitchen area, my office/pantry and then finally the big barn. It means that we are stepping into the stepping back and the slowing down intentionally and purposefully. It means that we are going to use this time to steward well what the Lord has already placed in our hands. This means that I am going to have more time to write, to dig into my creative projects, to not have any external pressures or obligations and truly let my body start to heal. I am going to have time to make my house a home and truly step into this life I have dreamed of for so long without the option to focus on building a business or meeting deadlines for customers. I am choosing to look at this season as a blessing that I can enjoy instead of a season of lack. And I am praying that I can reflect the true joy of the Lord in it for everyone around me to see.
So, here's to the next six months! I am looking forward to the journey, mountaintops and valleys, they will each hold their own lessons and values. I am looking forward to sharing this with all of you. And if it helps even one person along the way, then sharing it was completely worth it.
If you have been chasing symptoms, and are ready to try an alternative way of healing by actually getting to the root of the problems; reach out to me. I will gladly share my CNHP's information with you.
Blessings to you all!
Still Farmer Mandy
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